Mass shooter Omar Mateen was gay

I’ve been waiting for this news to drop. It seemed to be only a matter of time.

A former classmate of Omar Mateen’s 2006 police academy class said he believed Mateen was gay, saying Mateen once asked him out…

The classmate said that he, Mateen and other classmates would hang out, sometimes going to gay nightclubs, after classes at the Indian River Community College police academy. He said Mateen asked him out romantically.

Now the picture comes into focus. Omar is a closeted gay man. He wants to be himself, but he’s afraid of what he’ll become. He wants to be accepted, but he’s tortured and weird. He wants to be a good employee, but he keeps getting fired. He wants to be a city cop, but he can’t pass the tests. A frustrated man.

“We went to a few gay bars with him, and I was not out at the time, so I declined his offer,” the former classmate said… “He just wanted to fit in and no one liked him,” he said. “He was always socially awkward.”

In Orlando, the Los Angeles Times reported that Mateen attended the Pulse nightclub possibly as many as a dozen times before the rampage. Kevin West said he had messaged Mateen back and forth over a year’s time on the gay dating app Jack’d but never met him until he saw Mateen crossing the street about 1 a.m. Sunday.

“He walked directly past me. I said, ‘Hey,’ and he turned and said, ‘Hey,’” and nodded his head, West said. “I could tell by the eyes.”

Can you imagine? Seeing someone you thought was cute on a dating app, in person? He says ‘Hey’ as he walks past you then murders 50 people. Shudder.

At least four regular customers of Pulse, the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender nightclub where the massacre took place, told the Orlando Sentinel on Monday that they believed they had seen Mateen there before.

“Sometimes he would go over in the corner and sit and drink by himself, and other times he would get so drunk he was loud and belligerent,” said Ty Smith, who also uses the name Aries.

A security guard co-worker also says Mateen was that way, all the time. Eventually he quit to get away from the man. But Mateen kept texting and e-mailing him, like an angry misfit.

[Smith] saw Mateen at the club at least a dozen times, he told the Sentinel. “We didn’t really talk to him a lot, but I remember him saying things about his dad at times,” Smith said. “He told us he had a wife and child”…

Chris Callen recalled the eventual killer being escorted drunk from the Pulse bar on multiple occasions, including one incident where he pointed a knife at a friend. Said Callen, who performs under the name Kristina McLaughlin, “He’s been going to this bar for at least three years.”

I’m not exactly sure what this means for the idea of ‘terrorism’ being the motive here. Mateen seems to be striking out against the people who successfully made the transition to adulthood, or at least sexual maturity.

Certainly you could see that as terrorism, but that’s of a different stripe than what ISIS does. Not religion or politics. Then again…? My ISIS/Al Qaeda genesis myth is heavily based on male frustration, like ‘These people are not allowed to have sex, or kiss, or hold hands with, or even talk to women. That can’t be healthy.’ In Mateen’s case, you can just switch it to men. I know that sort of deprivation would have made me angry. Like, hysterical.